Saturday, October 10, 2009

fear vs faith

The pedulum swings back and forth between fear and faith...at any given moment I find myself faced with the fact that any day now I could be experiencing some of the worst pain of my life, and then fighting to swing back to faith, which tells me I can do anything when God is with me, because He gives me strength. I'm thankful that this time I spend more time on the faith end of the swing, but the fear continues to sneak in. If I could fast forward to that moment when baby has finally been born and the euphoria I feel once all is done, I would. But I wonder, would it be the same without all the work before hand? Probably not. And so, I will continue to resist fear, and rest in the peace God has for me. Looking forward to the moment I'll see this little one's face, hear her cry, hold her close.

Now, if I could just get her to stop sitting on my spine....

Friday, October 2, 2009

Happy Birthday, Emma!

8 years ago, Ken and I were blessed to finally hold our Emma, our girl. What a delightful and refreshing influence she has had on this household of boys! So motherly to the youngest, ever helpful, and she doesn't miss ANYTHING! Soon to be big sister to a little sister, and so excited to share her room with her sister. Ken and I feel so blessed, so rich. Thank you Lord, for sending us our Emma.